Cleanse You

It can tear me to see you broken,

Like a coughing and spluttering machine

At least if I could wind you up

If you were mechanical

And didn't run on batteries

Could you let me fix you

Not change you,

not alter you

Just fix you

You won't let me see what you've hidden inside

Like it was a treasure you had to protect

You won't let me close to what ripped you apart

What made you label yourself as defect

If I could wind you up

If you worked that way

Could I fix you

Would you let me

It's like you're tangled in a spiral

That no one can unwind

Like your voice is immortalized

On a tape you can't rewind

Like a lost fragment of thought

In your mind

Could I fix you

Would you let me

I already know the answer

It feels like I've already tried

Although most of my confusion

Derives from sad illusions

From melancholia

From my visions

What did I get myself into, what did you

I didn't sign up for madness, did you

I knew you weren't undamaged

But none of us really are

Does that explain anything

Do you ever feel like you need explanations

I can't pinpoint who you are or what you've been

There's a darkness inside of you

I think only I have seen

I wouldn't change you

I wouldn't alter you

Just cleanse you of the darkest darkness

Just fix you

Would you let me

Symmetry

Your scent is still everywhere,

draped around me like a blanket

The way your voice is still everywhere,

whispering to me in the dark

I told you I'd follow you anywhere

Follow your broken heart

Like a tourniquet

Like a fresh start

Consider everything that happened until this point

Everything that made you change inside

Will you cherish those moments,

So sweet and invaluable

Learn how to rip them apart

So I couldn't project my life views on you

Couldn't apply my experiences on you

Here I thought I had become wiser,

With my insights

Weren't you more

Didn't you prove my hubris

You always make reevaluate what I see

But I never have to pretend that I'm not me

Do you realize how much that explodes

Into energy

Into symmetry

Algorithms

Is this the truth you wanted

Tell me - is this what you fought to uphold

While every memory told you not to

While every fiber told you to let go

Is this the truth you fought for

The truth you sought for

When did you involve me in your social experiment

Convinced that you could overturn your own experience

Pull the right strings, make all your puppets dance!

The invisible music in your mind that's built of algorithms

Will suit their every step and put them all in trance!

Isn't that a quite modified truth,

the one you pull out of reluctant puppets

Isn't it a quite molded reality,

the one that's reflected in their eyes

There was a time I let myself be swayed by you

I let myself fall into that hypnosis I despise

And a time I told myself I needed you

But I got tangled in my own feeble lie

I made a mistake, trusting the wrong solution

I made a mistake by trusting you

Who can claim ownership of what's true

Claim to own the underlying meaning

Behind every word, every thought, every reaction

Who can claim they know how you feel

Claim to have seen what you are seeing

Painting your new, improved way of thinking

Across your face and across your heart

Across your soul

In place of your own

There's only paint

There's only pain

I've created a refuge, my own little settlement,

Where I will stand for my every sentiment,

Where I will forge my own non-religious beliefs,

And distance myself from everything that drains me,

Where I will dress in words my every thought,

Until you're convinced it's the truth I've caught

The truth you sought