Viveka

I looked everywhere for you
Through every door, in every room
I thought I could conjure you to life
That you could be returned
That you never died


Everywhere I heard your voice
Everywhere I saw your eyes
Regardless of choice,
Regardless of mind
You presented yourself
To my memory
Ghost to be


I can't retrieve you from the other side
I can't glorify you after you died
I can't grasp my own dreams anymore
but I can fulfill yours
In your name
Even though it's not the same


I had to withstand facing your Reaper
I was forced to embrace
unpredictability
I confronted a mirage of you
That was really me


Everywhere I heard your voice
Everywhere I saw your eyes
Regardless of choice,
Regardless of mind
You presented yourself
To my memory
Ghost to be


They wouldn't let me be,
they chased after me
I ran for you, to save your remains
To save what I remember
from damage and stains


You couldn't face your Reaper alone
Isn't that why I was allowed to be
When all awhile I wouldn't see
that was your only ambition for me


And my dearest,
Everywhere I heard your voice
Everywhere I saw your eyes
Regardless of choice,
Regardless of mind
You presented yourself
To my memory
Ghost to be


My dearest
I don't know what I can achieve
I don't know why I do believe
I can change things or make them better
All I know is that I can't stay here
This heartless existence
is more than I can stand
but wasn't that your true intention
Wasn't that part of your plan
This heartless existence
Was created by you
By your hand


And my dearest
Everywhere I hear your voice
Everywhere I see your eyes
Regardless of choice,
Regardless of mind
You present yourself
To my memory
Ghost to be