Hell Out Of Here

Bless my luck! I was just surfing the net when I thought I'd drop by the site with apartments in my municipality, and whoa! I found just the one! It's a one-roomer, very central, next to Elle, even though she'll be moving out in a couple of months. Feels like everyone's going to Australia this year. Guys, I really envy you! Anyway, this apartment, it happens like once-in-a-lifetime that an apartment like that gets up on the site. I gotta go have a look at it. First thing in the morning, I'll give the main office a call, let them know I'm interested. If I'm really lucky, I might be able to get it, and I'll be out of this shithole of a flat as soon as September. Yeay! That's like, no more than, let's see... June, July, August, well, with most of June gone already, it's like two months. I can do that, I can bare to do two more months here, if I know I'll be getting to a better place. Actually, I looked at two flats, in case I wouldn't get the one I really wanted. The other one is even more central, but didn't have as good design. Hopefully, both are okay, and not like the crap that no one else wanted, that's been offered to the main public. I'm uncertain it'll still be there when I call tomorrow, though. Each flat only stays out for like one week, and it's Thursday. I hope people are bad at dropping by. Or that I'll get it easier since I'm already with the same landlord, and have been for almost a year. I can't believe it, you know. This might actually be it, the flat I was looking for last summer but couldn't find, so I had to take this two-roomer with twice the rent, just to get something. It might just be it.
We've been talking about moving apart from eachother, Nikki and me, and I think I decided for myself long ago. I just feel as though I need space. I need to live by myself, have my stuff, and definitely not live like this. Outskirts of the city. Living the family life with a lawn and a pet. I can't stand it. And as long as I'm young and free and curious and want to go places, see places, the closer I get, the better. I'm not ready to move to Gothenburg yet though. I wanna stick around for a while. I like this town, I know every curbstone of it, every bump, every sign, where to go, what to do. Who to see!
But Elle is right in the end. Everyone's staying behind, while we should be doing our best to get out of here. I admire her courage. Wish sometimes I was remotely like her. That I could just do as I wanted and as I felt like. Man, if I could start over, I'm not sure I would have started studying so soon after upper secondary school, it's worn me out.
I want to matter! Make a difference! At least to someone. Make a difference to the world. Or make a difference to myself. Know that I've done things for MY sake. I don't feel like dancing around to other people's music anymore, don't wanna follow while others lead. I wanna be someone, and someday I will be. I'll show you. I'll get the hell out of here, someday.