Ode To 2009

It is time to do me one of those best-of-last-year-lists, and I'll try to keep it as non-annoying as quite possible. Quick random listing of my last year's memories follows here.


The Down Things

• Constant lack of funding throughout the year, and losing my job at the school that I loved/hated/loved.
• Feeling distanced from everything.
• Being left, beginning therapy and getting meds. The constant need to hurt myself to feel alive and less afraid of death.
• The people that we lost during the year to death.
  
• Going back to work that I most of the time loathe.
• The publisher that was a scam and was a major blow to my creativity.
• Having to move out from the apartment that I loved.
• Friends that gave up.
• The panic attacks.

The Up Things

• Finland, in August. The music, friends and experiences there. Meeting with POTF? Are you kidding?!
  
• Czech Republic/Slovakia in May.
• The music. Finding new bands such as InMe and Itchy Daze and Soko, and reliving City and Color, but also going to the concerts with Takida, Dead By April etc.
• Far away friends that made everything worthwhile.
• Finding Rockstar. Even though he left me and it nearly destroyed me, he gave this year many bright memories. That said I haven't forgiven him. Don't know if I will?
  
• My wonderful friends nearby, making life a bit more fun. You are the family that I chose for myself and without you I would have given up a long time ago. I'm proud to say I know you all and I feel honored to be part of you all.
• The parties!
• The art, I've learned so much and it's been great.
• The writing. Nanowrimo 2009 - hell of an experience. Cade ftw! Ophelia, ftw!
• Getting my two kitty cats. With them it's just easier. Their presence here soothes me.
• Bandit Rock radio station that really worked in my favor this year and street teaming for POTF. Amazing, thank you!
• New Year's. I love you guys.

Signing out for now, this is just a brief resumé off the top of my head, so don't expect to find it all in here. But many things are in here. Indeed they are!
POET in the 2010 JAR