Monday, November 14

Mindtricks

Have you ever tried to embrace the cause of your sadness
Holding it to your heart in a treacherous caress
The last time you can read eachother
The last time you'll live in bliss
In one last embrace
In one last kiss
Have you ever experienced this

You spun lies out of spoken words
And almost fell for your own deceit
Learning to mask yourself so skillfully
That everyone was fooled
Including me

I'll keep my own mindtricks at an arm's length away
Hoping I'll protect myself that way
I told myself I was making the right decisions
Keeping my own impulses at bay
Now I can't tell if I did it out of convenience
Or out of self-preservation
And cutting the bonds with desperation
Requires motivation


You spun lies out of spoken words
And almost fell for your own deceit
Learning to mask yourself so skillfully
That everyone was fooled
Including me

Could you teach me, please
How to look beyond the shortest moments
While keeping remembrance of myself
Of who I always wanted to be
Can you teach me, please
You seem to know

You spun lies out of spoken words
And almost fell for your own deceit
Learning to mask yourself so skillfully
That everyone was fooled
Including me

Why couldn't you hold up a mirror shard to me
Forcing me to face what stared back at me
Why couldn't you confront me with my monsters
Maybe that would have scared me back on track
Or at least raised my defenses, spurred me to attack

I spun lies out of spoken words
And almost fell for my own deceit
Learning to mask myself so skillfully
That everyone was fooled
Including me

4 comments:

  1. love the rhymes so so much!

    "Have you ever tried to embrace the cause of your sadness
    Holding it to your heart in a treacherous caress"

    I personally have, at least in the way I understood those lines. and they're the lines that had the most meaning to me.

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  2. I wrote everything based on those lines... they portray exactly how I feel like right now :/

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  3. well I'm certainly not happy to hear that. why is it so hard to be happy, that's what I keep asking myself. Why does the sadness keep coming back?

    impossible to tell but we have to live with it.

    be strong, hun.

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  4. Normally I'd say that's what the poet has to live with but since this was inspired by my current situation I think it will pass. I hope it will pass. <3

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